Sunday, May 11, 2014
But, the boys got older and another one joined them. My stay-at-home mom status turned into a Work-from-Home status as I was able to use all the things I learned here and turn them into a wee little web business that now has me running the websites and social media for a small cadre of clients. Nothing huge, but enough to allow The Man to only do side work when we have a friend in dire need of his mechanical skills.
We have now evolved into 100% hockey parents. Anyone that has children that play travel ice hockey know what this means. Five to seven days in a rink if you have one playing...we have three. This means seven days a week and most days inhabiting multiple rinks. Our oldest lettered in Varsity Ice Hockey for his school this year. He's only a Freshman, so this was huge. A 14 year old out there playing AA varsity hockey. Our 13 year old goalie went to an international tournament in Lake Placid this season and had the most saves in his entire division and third most in the tournament. He was also awarded MVP. The five year old is already dangling, deking and scoring top shelf. I even started a women's hockey program at our rink and now look forward to my own ice time each week. This is the entirety of our lives right now.
That's the good stuff that has kept me away. Unfortunately, the good has been tempered with some very bad.
I don't have the strength he has. I was in a very dark place. I didn't dwell on the 'why my kid,' because why anyone's kid? Or 'why the kid that never does anything wrong,' because it seems to always be that amazing kid that has to deal with the worst stuff. I just felt incapacitated with the weight of the sadness. Wondering how I would parent normally with that hanging over my head.
But one day it hit me. I can't live like that. I owe it to him, and my entire family, to make everything as normal as possible. To truly live each day to the fullest and not just give that mantra lip service. So that's what I've resolved to do.
I've also resolved to rejoin the political world. I've dropped out the past few years because I was just too disillusioned. Too disgusted with the people around me. But, I've felt convicted to reengage.
I'm pretty sure this means vigorous campaigning for Rand Paul.
I'm glad I didn't delete you little blog. I am not promising you will ever regain your former modest glory...but I hope to regain at least a fraction of my political voice.